I think our brains deserve way more credit than we give them. No one sees the brain affectionately like we do the heart, when in fact I'm sure the brain is the one that gives us all that we think the heart does. Besides, the heart just pumps blood right?

Wait a minute.

Actually, I think the brain is warped. If the brain is the puppet master, then why does she trick me into thinking otherwise? Why does she not just use her powers to promote herself and make the humans commercialise her instead of that puny little jock-of-an-organ? Or is she doing it on purpose to make me try and figure out how she works? Perhaps she is split into parts that do not know each other. That'd make her a plural. (I'm using her because I'm sure my brain is a she. Not an it because that sounds derogatory.)

Nevertheless, whatever conclusion you make, (I give up for now and accept the fact that my brain is bigger than me or the part of her that I am able to grasp) I love it when my heart races and almost leaps out of my chest. Its exhilarating doncha think! Ignoring, of course, the fact that meanwhile my mind loses whatever capability it had and is everywhere but with me. (Ah ha! Another trick!)

For a moment its like I'm Bella.
For a moment, I almost can't breath.

Oh yeah, fantasize schmantasize. It's allllll in the minddddd. You scheming litttle.... you...

Torn between what reason says and how I really feel
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Pretty dress that cost 160 freaking buckaroos.
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She's so pretty. I love this song. Christine hurry send it to me!!! :)


Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think.
He melt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said.
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Note to self: never ever watch a book-inspired-movie before reading the book again. Especially when it revolves largely around a dashing male lead like Edward Cullen.

I'm just done with book 1 of the Twilight saga and although I don't like the way Stephenie Meyers write - she's so upfront and in your face, just throwing all the information at you, not carefully weaving it into the story - I finished it in 3 days. 3 days' worth of bus rides. She is pretty imaginative to think of such a storyline and a character like Edward Cullen. Dear Edward.

I read with bated breath. My heart races when Bella's does. I want to know how he smells! Their romance is very much related to scent and them being hopelessly intoxicated by how the other smells. I don't see how a guy can smell good without the help of cologne though.

But poor Edward is stuck. Stuck in the pathetic image of Robert Pattinson. I regret not reading the book first because now I can no longer imagine my own Edward. Everytime I read and my mind does its thing, playing the entire scene in my head, I see Robert Pattinson - a more attractive Robert Pattinson. In my mind, he no longer has only one facial expression and I don't imagine him in the awful angles shown in some of the very poorly taken photos of him. BUT THAT IS STILLL SAD!

"You're intoxicated by my very presence." He was grinning with that playful smirk again.

My favourite scene in the movie was the showdown between James and Edward, with poor Bella in the background writhing in pain. The intensity of it was so overwhelming and Bella! I must say I was impressed by whatever-her-name-is in this scene - she did a good job acting, showing the pain she felt from the bite. The raw shouts and body spasms when the venom was travelling in her blood streams. And Edward *sighs* how he was torn between saving the love of his life and the fact that he might just kill her at the same time. It was so painful to watch and I cried. For Edward.

But in the book, the fight scene was nothing and it didn't even mention the amount of pain and torture Edward went through - cause the book's written in Bella's perspective, and she was unconscious when poor Edward suffered.

My favourite part in the book was when Edward discovers that he can resist the urge to devour Bella, or her blood rather, and there's this new level of trust and openness in their twisted relationship. And how he kept watch over Bella that night to remain 'immune' to her scent. He's so sweeet that non-existent vampire. :):):) And how he's so protective over Bella, how he carries her and treats her so gently. How he wishes to kiss her but can't properly cos it'd drive him insane so he doesn't. Not really.

Oh Edward Cullen, you melt my heart.

Oh golly. How did I get myself caught in this web that so many other teeny girlies have fallen prey to? I did resist initially and refused to touch the books. But when I watched the movie and heard the heart of Edward, all defenses fell away. I don't care how many people say the movie sucked - I LOVED IT AND I'M PROUD OF IT. I hung on to the edge of my seat okay. Not all movies can do that to me.

I'll bet the boys are hating you. You set the bar way up there. No one's gonna reach it Edward. But then again, its not fair is it? You can fly, run fast, read minds, not sleep. Them? They're just human. :)

"Just give me a minute to restart my heart."

Valentines' Day is coming.. I want my very own Edward Cullen please!

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
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Janine has completed one huge part of Scriptwriting Group and is relieved for a while and feels that she should be able to rest and eat some popcorn.

I'm so happy that I've completed something and I feel gooooood. :D





These are the things I mentioned in one of the previous posts, the thing I said I did and am so proud of? Also inspired by van? haha YUP! That's it! :D

Okay, I have a lot more to show but photobucket took too long and Law is still a pain in the tush.
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Fruit cake and ice cream

You must watch this. Louie Giglio talking about Grace and sharing Ashley's story.
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I need peace. I need peace I need peace

My heart constantly feels like it needs to jump out of my chest. I feel so UGGGHHHH. I need to do this and that and this and that. And I'm not being productive!

Peace peace peace. No anxiety.

:(

I need help. Help from on high.

Yes, I do. I do I do I do!


And tomorrow is THE day for army boy erns! We're gonna miss you duuude! :) Keeping you in prayer!


send a little smile my way

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