"What are you doing right now that requires faith?"

Lord, direct me. Let me be found on the path that is narrow, that few will find. Give me the faith, the boldness to be doing things for Your Kingdom, things that are beyond myself, things that will require me to rely completely on You. When there are so many uncertainties clouding the way, let Your light SHINE so brightly that I may discern right from wrong. Let it be YOUR will, not ours. If we are wrong, stop us before we go any further Lord.

I want to glorify You. That's the only thing I want to do. Let my life reflect that. Let me be so crazily in love with You.
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This is why I love AJ Rafael. He is talented, in a very raw way. It's so sweet how he's so overwhelmed by the singing along that he can't sing because he's moved to tears. Awww <3 I like you AJ!

Singapore has no AJs or Kinas. Sheeeesh.

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Literature Nerd Does sitting by a nice cozy fire, with a cup of hot tea/chocolate, and a book you can read for hours even when your eyes grow red and dry and you look sort of scary sitting there with your insomniac appearance? Then you fit this category perfectly! You love the power of the written word and it's eloquence; and you may like to read/write poetry or novels. You contribute to the smart people of today's society, however you can probably be overly-critical of works. It's okay. I understand.

Anyway, I watched He's Just Not That Into You yesterday with Kaizhong Koko, who came to Singapore with a thousand bucks and was left with only 40 when we met up. LOL Madness. But he's got the money to spend anyway. Earn big bucks surfing the net and listening to audiobooks. Shiok. I didn't really like the movie though. It felt really messy, like jumping back and forth the various stories, though that has worked before in previous movies, it didn't feel right for me in this one. And though I was impressed by the cast, it somehow felt like a low budget film. I hated the parts in between where they got random people to talk about the various scenarios. SO out of place. There was one guy who CLEARLY was reading his script off camera. But I liked Justin Long in this movie. His character reminds me of someone but I just can't remember who. Oh well. I loved the salted popcorn. And the happy ending. "You are my exception," he said.

There's a corner of your heart for me.
There's a corner of your heart just for me.
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart.
Just to stay in the corner of your heart.
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What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!

Got that from Esther's blog, and I'm sure it's not my 'True Fear" - what there's a fake fear too? - but it's fun and much of it is true. So you guys should know how much I love y'all. :D

I'm unofficially done with TP CMM. The place I knew I wanted to be since early Sec 3. It was either this or JC. And the 3 years have just gone by like that. I can't believe I've lived to say that! Life in CMM is insane. The workload is crazy and I distinctly remember thinking at the start of each semester after year 1 that I might not survive this. And it really felt like that by the second week, after all the student guides have been uploaded onto VBUS and the assignment details are thrown at us. But I've miraculously survived it all! Thank God!

And though I've not been the most sociable person during this three years of my life (esp in TP - ha ha), I'm appreciative of all the little friendships that I've made along the way. I think I allowed myself to believe that you can't really make friends in your poly life and especially in mass comm - where it's so competitive. In a way it's still kind of a good thing. I wasn't part of any drama mama backstabbing saga. And I haven't made enemies. :)

I thank God for Asher and Cailin! ( Haha hi Asher! ) That somehow we happened to be part of this huge, weird mismashed group in year 1. And then sticking together as group mates and stuff for year 2. Although there were definitely frustrations, I enjoyed being stressed for group work. Good stress. We had same kind of expectations of ourselves and the work we produced. Asher, I'll always remember you poning a whole week of class (right?) for the Hillsong Conference, HAHA. And your crazy news absorbing brain. And also all the chats and wise advice. Might not have said it before, but they really gave me new perspectives. And encouraged me too! :D Cailin will always be remembered for her crazy neat-freak handwritten notes. And her helping me with my stupid arts collage when I was rushing like mad. And for being the other all-nighterer when deadline's the next day.

Of course there are other's that I enjoyed working with like Tiffany. She's incredibly nice to talk with and easy to work with. And Hirzi and Munah - I'm glad I got to work with them this last semester. It was close to what I had with Cailin and Asher working wise. And of course how can I forget Yizhong - who out of all the above mentioned has seen the weirdest side of me, only because I was stuck with him 9 hours a day, 5 days a week. Very entertaining. Haha. I miss internship sometimes. Cos it's so much more relaxed than school and I got to earn money too!

And lastly, Joram and Gus. Why did I get stuck with you guys. HAHA! Just kidding. It was fun. But I felt like a mother nagging at you guys - gus mostly - to get things done like pronto! lol JORAM! I CAN NEVER BE CAUGHT EATING IN STUDIOS NO MORE! :D Can't believe I'm not gonna see you around on a regular basis no more. :/

I don't regret choosing CMM. I feel like I've accomplished a fair bit in these 3 years. Not as much as some if you wanna play the comparison game, but I'm glad that I've learnt the skills, been exposed to the technical, hands-on parts of various productions. I'm looking forward to using them skills for His Kingdom.

:D
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SHE'S SO CUTE. I've been posting video after video but I don't care! I love this song. I CAN PLAY IT TOO YO! on the keyboard. And backwards (as in I stand at the back of the keyboard instead)! wahahhaa. That just says that its an easy song to play.

It's songs like these that make me feel happy and all nicey nice. JANINE WITH A BIG SMILE :D

Now.. why didn't I take a picture with her back then when I could. hmmmmph.
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Kina Grannis is loveeee.



I love her and her songs. So sweeet yet it's not cringe-worthy. And its catchy. :D

subscribe to her if you're a youtubeee. :) you won't regret it. she's such a sweet person.

here's a song dedication!
Going out to
my angel, who turned out to be a Jerald and not a girly girly;
my dearest tineee, who assures me constantly that she'll lend me a shoulder till Mr Right/Edward Cullens comes along, though she needs one as much as, if not, more than I do(she cries harder than me);
belle and peter who broke my heart, :p THANKS AH;
and everyone elseeee (imma try and list everyone else whom I think/know/hope reads this)
Erns, eq, nick (nick nick!), ronald (you better), lalaaa, zoe, grace, WL:), clement, andrew, asher, joram, van, jazz, shux (i could get used to this instead of esther. haha shooox), keith, venus, edward(teo), char, andy, jelene, uncle eugene, all other uncles and aunties... (who else who else!)
Message: I love you allll. :D You can all be my valentine! One for everyday of the year. <3 ahahah

Press play and listen to the song!
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Wow... It's kinda unofficially over! Weird feeling. Didn't feeel the whoooooosh of freedom though. Not like the last time, after the mad MEP rush. That was the only time I felt the liberation. I was screaming at my cousin in the car and everything. lol.

Oh well. Time to mug for law. Sigh. I'm pretty disappointed with myself. I need to do well for exams.

It's a self-fulfilling prophesy. Go on, continue to push me down that very same road. Let's see how far I'll go. Words will never hurt me, they say. What a lie. You don't know how deep they are.

Edward, edward. Bring me to Isle Esme.

Say something funny, say something sweet.
But don't say that you loved me.

Oh hey! Happy Valentine's Day everybody! I wonder if my angel can see this. I love you angel! I HOPE I GET FLOWERS :) Better still, give me Edward Cullen :)

You know, if you force yourself to smile, you'll eventually feel better! So grrrrrrrin!
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YOU'RE NOT A MAAAAAAAN!
YOU'RE JUST A MANNEQUIN!

You said move on where do I go
I guess second best is all I will know~

Baby, you're the weapon that I choose.
These wounds are self inflicted.

Cos I don't wanna be-ee one of the bo-oh-oh-oh-oys

Katy Perry is going onto(into?) the playlist!
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I'm in love with that line. It's so poetic.

I'm almost done with school.

Oh yeahhhhh.



Love Is Waiting - Brooke Fraser

And like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart.
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