You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Got that from Esther's blog, and I'm sure it's not my 'True Fear" - what there's a fake fear too? - but it's fun and much of it is true. So you guys should know how much I love y'all. :D
I'm unofficially done with TP CMM. The place I knew I wanted to be since early Sec 3. It was either this or JC. And the 3 years have just gone by like that. I can't believe I've lived to say that! Life in CMM is insane. The workload is crazy and I distinctly remember thinking at the start of each semester after year 1 that I might not survive this. And it really felt like that by the second week, after all the student guides have been uploaded onto VBUS and the assignment details are thrown at us. But I've miraculously survived it all! Thank God!
And though I've not been the most sociable person during this three years of my life (esp in TP - ha ha), I'm appreciative of all the little friendships that I've made along the way. I think I allowed myself to believe that you can't really make friends in your poly life and especially in mass comm - where it's so competitive. In a way it's still kind of a good thing. I wasn't part of any drama mama backstabbing saga. And I haven't made enemies. :)
I thank God for Asher and Cailin! ( Haha hi Asher! ) That somehow we happened to be part of this huge, weird mismashed group in year 1. And then sticking together as group mates and stuff for year 2. Although there were definitely frustrations, I enjoyed being stressed for group work. Good stress. We had same kind of expectations of ourselves and the work we produced. Asher, I'll always remember you poning a whole week of class (right?) for the Hillsong Conference, HAHA. And your crazy news absorbing brain. And also all the chats and wise advice. Might not have said it before, but they really gave me new perspectives. And encouraged me too! :D Cailin will always be remembered for her crazy neat-freak handwritten notes. And her helping me with my stupid arts collage when I was rushing like mad. And for being the other all-nighterer when deadline's the next day.
Of course there are other's that I enjoyed working with like Tiffany. She's incredibly nice to talk with and easy to work with. And Hirzi and Munah - I'm glad I got to work with them this last semester. It was close to what I had with Cailin and Asher working wise. And of course how can I forget Yizhong - who out of all the above mentioned has seen the weirdest side of me, only because I was stuck with him 9 hours a day, 5 days a week. Very entertaining. Haha. I miss internship sometimes. Cos it's so much more relaxed than school and I got to earn money too!
And lastly, Joram and Gus. Why did I get stuck with you guys. HAHA! Just kidding. It was fun. But I felt like a mother nagging at you guys - gus mostly - to get things done like pronto! lol JORAM! I CAN NEVER BE CAUGHT EATING IN STUDIOS NO MORE! :D Can't believe I'm not gonna see you around on a regular basis no more. :/
I don't regret choosing CMM. I feel like I've accomplished a fair bit in these 3 years. Not as much as some if you wanna play the comparison game, but I'm glad that I've learnt the skills, been exposed to the technical, hands-on parts of various productions. I'm looking forward to using them skills for His Kingdom.
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