janine loves!

1/15/2010 11:50:00 pm

Breathe

I need to breathe. I need space. I need metime.

I feel overwhelmed. I need to list things down one by one to declutter my mind, but I need a nice place to do so. I want to be in nature. I can't even find a decent place in the vicinity where I can sit under/beside/near a tree to think and not be disturbed by inconsiderate teenagers.

I desperately need time alone.

Productive quality time spent with not a single other human being, but me.

This means not having to care whether or not someone else needs the seat I'm taking, not needing to look at my watch and rush somewhere, not needing to think of anything but the things I choose to think about.

This sucks big time. I have a feeling its all hormonal. Perhaps it'll go away soon. I hope it does. But it doesn't change the fact that I have too much, too too much.

Why am I telling you this?

It makes me feel better. Maybe, just maybe the world will be a little better now that my gripes are made known. Maybe Singapore's air might start smelling a little more nature like. Maybe you'll stop thinking that my world is pretty and pink with beautiful ring things.

Okay. Sleep it off.